Jealousy has my WHAT?

Jealousy is a feeling that we don't have the hold of. I personally believe that I get really jealous is certain cases. (Maybe instead of 'really', 'too' would fit in better.) I'd be jealous everybody, even a stranger has the power of making me jealous. But what people don't understand is I don't like to show it too much. That's just who I am, I know it's not the best. I also don't show my anger and sadness to the world but that's a whole another topic.
I'm currently in the situation where I feel like I'm slowly losing my best friend to another close friend. And that feeling just sucks the blood out of my heart leaving me looking at the ceiling with no emotion what so ever. Maybe it's just me, me over-thinking and my brain pointing out her behaviors against me but this situation just bothers me so much. Maybe she's reading this right now, not believing that this is how I really feel because I don't show it, or maybe she's noticed something different about me during the last few days that we hung out. Either way, nothing has changed about her.
She's been canceling our plans and not returning my calls. What I'm probably gonna do is back off of her a little bit hoping that this'll make her understand what really is going on inside of me.
I think jealousy has my control right now. Can't think of a way to take the wheel back in my hands but I guess waiting is the name of the road that I'm driving on.

Thinking...

People think. It's in our nature, our brains are operated to do so. But what's bad about it is we sometimes cannot control the amount. A lot of people that I know over think. They think of each and every possibility that could happen in each and every situation and let me tell you, it's no good for you.
There are some situations where you are not fully aware of what's going on and you start to think of what might have happened, who did what and what led the situation to where it is and you get so carried away, you start to blame people of what they might have (or haven't) done. And how you do that is based on how you see people. For instance, if there's a person that is involved in the situation but you don't like them very much, you start thinking of what bad things they might've done that made things worse. If they did what you imagined them doing, then good for you, you should be a psychic. But most of the time, the scenario that you've made up in your mind is so far away from the truth that it makes you start thinking of a future scenario which probably won't happen and that just will leave you disappointed.
I guess what I'm saying is don't blame people of what they might have done and don't wish nasty things to happen to them just because of your imagination. Just wait, ask questions and figure out the truth. Trust me, I've learnt it the hard way, it's easier than thinking.

Makeover!

So, hello. I've decided to come back to blogging and to begin with, I'm gonna give my blog a new look! It's gonna be coming your way real soon! Thank you!